12 November 2019

Disappearing Objects - My Experiences Of Significance

The night before last I went to sleep at a friend's house after having fiddled around on facebook for a bit and listened to some podcast episodes, then switching off the said phone. I woke up later in the morning and realized it had totally disappeared! Both my friend and I looked on the window-sill where I had left it, as well as on the bed (the window-sill sticks out a little over the bed) and on the floor under the bed and between the bed and the wall, as well as well as putting out some items that were being stored under there and taking off the matress and bedding and some of the slats of the bed itself. However, no matter how much we looked neither of us could find the google pixel I had had since the summer of 2017. While we were searching for it, the thought struck me that this could be some kind of weird test from the universe. After all, I had been saying for several months or even a couple of years on and off that I wanted to getrid of the cellphone and go back to using landlines. In that context though I thought it would have to be a situation where I stayed in one place and no longer travelled, but I guess the powers that be had other ideas. Well that wal 2 nights ago or yesterday morning into the afternoon and we still never found the android phone since. The thing I noticed almost straight away was that while everyone else is busy worrying about what I'm going to do without a phone (as if you can't survive without one), I find it plain weird rather than concerning. In fact I found myself immediately figuring out ways to let people know what time I would be travelling today and when I would arrive etc. I also got to thinking what did I actually use the smartphone for? Really I only use it for WhatsApp and Instagram, but I have skype and of course messenger on the facebook website and e-mail. When I can I can use landline phones as well, so it's not like I'm completely out of contact with the world, it just takes a bit longer and is less convenient. Today I went from my friend's house in county Durham in northeast England to Spalding in Lincolnshire in the middle/east of England where I would meet the grandparents. My friend came with me to the train station anyway, but beforehand I looked up the times of the trains. We went to Costa Coffee for a bit so he looked up the times of the next train while we were there. Nan had already told me to ring her when I got to Peterborough, because my original plan was to ring when I got to Spalding, but apparently there are no phones at Spalding. I didn't feel like waiting around so took the train to York then the one to Peterborough, but it made no difference as I spent just as long waiting at Peterborough to go to Spalding. Nan did offer me her old windows phone, but I couldn't get on with it because I found it so slow and it barely did anything when I tried to open apps and things on it. Needless to say I gave up with it pretty quickly. Speaking of objects disappearing, this morning, I looked in my handbag for something and realized that the inside compartment was open. Most unusual as I had no reason to do that. The day before I had noticed my bag was spun the other way but dismissed it, because of course things get moved around while rummaging through looking for other things. Well I looked and realized that one of my passports had totally disappeared. My world passport and world citizenship card and copy of the universal declaration of human rights were still there, but the British passport was nowhere to be seen. I then looked in my wallet which was in a coat pocket (on the opposite side to the pocket that has the hole in) and realized that the 2 5.00 notes and some coinage I had left in there (most of the coins in fact) had also gone. I didn't look for the passports or in my wallet, because of course no one does unless they have a reason to do so. Sure I might possibly have ordered a takeaway and forgotten about it, but I had very few takeaways in the last week, perhaps 1 or 2, but normally when I do order I order a fair amount so it probably came to more than 12 or 13. Even if I had ordered something and payed in cash instead of card, it would explain the money fine but still doesn't explain the disappearance of the phone or the passport. I know my friend didn't know where most if any of my stuff was, so couldn't have taken anything even if they had wanted to. The other thing I noticed literally as I was getting ready to leave my friend's house, was that the memory stick I had left in the coat pocket for around a year (the same one as the wallet) had also up and left so it would seem. Thankfully there was nothing on the memory stick, but that's really not the point. I've had things go missing before, but they were random insignificant things like socks or flannels etc, that one could easily dismiss as the washing machine eating them or me mislaying them for no apparent reason. We all do it - put something somewhere and think we've put it somewhere else, or know we put something somewhere look and can't find it there, even perhaps replace the thing, then find the original item in exactly the place it should have been in the first place. This last 2 days or so have been different though. The things in and of themselves I find sort of hard to dismiss, even if it was some sort of testing thing going on, but not all at once. The only other time I've experienced anything like this is when I lived in a house a couple of years ago before I started travelling the first time, and I had gone inside with a friend and locked the door. I didn't think anything then of going to the kitchen and putting the kettle on and coming back. I was about to grab the keys from the front door (I lock the doors from the inside as you never know who is around) and go to the back door to show my friend something in the yard, when I noticed that the keys were nowhere to be found. We both looked on the floor around the door and the shoe-rack and sofa, but found no keys. I even looked behind the shoe-rack, because I had thrown an umbrella behind there, but nothing there either. I had to get the locks changed and new keys, but even on the day I moved out, I never found those keys.

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